If you use people and manipulate them in doing for you by exploiting their kindness and need need for love then you’re a fucking arsehole.
So many times I catch myself, giving to others (because that’s my nature and it makes me happy) but then there’s this understanding that some come to believe that I SHOULD give just because I have in the past or I have the means to do so…emotionally or otherwise.
I should have the right to give love freely and lift people’s spirits without having them feel that it is my duty to do so. When you are the one giving all the time and never being refilled, it’s hard to keep yourself (emotionally/mentally) strong for your own self. I have a bad habit of giving to others even when I don’t give to myself.
If I let you in, it’s not because I need you because, I stopped needing people a long time ago. It’s because I fucking want you, crave you…that devotion is the purest feeling of all. Do with it what you want.
I am the best version of me that there is to find. Daily I change, the stronger I become the stronger you need to be to earn my submission to you, but submit I will, to the right One. To the Right One, I will belong…EVERY FUCKING INCH OF ME….the insecurities, the strengths, the curves, the rolls, the sassy, the sweet, the warmth, the soul.
You invade this void in me filling it with devotion.
As you bring me to my knees
all my intentions fall to the floor
i am yours to do with as you desire.
Bound, I am free.
please don’t release me…
Why don’t you dig a little deeper
as you look into my eyes?
You shatter all that’s left inside?
We both know this feels right…
Can you hear me when I’m quiet?
Are you listening when I yell?
I am not a mistake! I am not a consolation prize!
I am not fill-in fluff when you’re lonely. I’m not a toy you can take out of a box when you’re bored and put back on the shelf until the next time you’re available.
I am THE fucking prize. I outshine the purest gold. If you want me and my submission, fucking earn me. Don’t expect me to fall at your feet just because.
I am deserving. Hear me.